Filed under: Personal
I’m abandoning this site.
For novelty’s sake, i probably wanna do something else.
(:
Adieus..
P.S.: A new site may be up in time to come
Fog is still playing. the lights are on, the blinds are drawn. i’m still seated before my table.
and in my mind, i pictured heaven. amazing sight.
and so i imagined the model response i’ll get too.
i went on to say, “please encourage me.”
but instead, i got 3 words:
“Quit backing down.”
Filed under: Music
Like Spinning Plates -
i really like.
the video(which is just an image over here since it’s print-screened), from an e-card:
it’s a dancing clown, and the music really suits him. a really clownish music.
i was really amused! 
and above all, touched by the sender – my cgl whom i share the same name with - Gloria!
Thanks for reminding me about Joshua and Caleb, and for bothering to take time to type the long encouragement, as well as choosing the video to come along with it. i really enjoyed it. it was really very amusing for me, and i was playing the video while in the living room with my mum watching tv beside me. but i’m not sure if she saw mr. polka-dot dancing for me.. i kept replaying.
thanks for being my cgl, for being a loving one who takes in all my immaturity with patience.
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suddenly, i really miss Team 5
i never thought screwing up on national tv can become so memorable instead. lol.
“TP year 3s can do much better than this.”
my heart sank. though not in a dramatic way, it still did. and even though it wasn’t specific, it got me thinking again.
A “Jack of all trades, master of none”, i’d rather have that. currently it’s a “Jack of little trades, master of none.”
it’s one of those times, from the bottom of my heart where i want to say,
just what can i do?
yet even as it is now so, He gave a second opinion:
“Do you want to do it?”
i was chatting with angus. i’m Kryptonite, and he’s Cecil Angus Gilchrist.. okay, that’s obvious.
| (12:51 AM) “Kryptonite”: | anw, do get well soon |
|---|---|
| (12:52 AM) “Kryptonite”: | sleep more |
| (12:52 AM) “Kryptonite”: | cos its so shiok to be sleeping know |
| (12:52 AM) “Kryptonite”: | hahaha |
| (12:52 AM) Cecil Angus Gilc: | ha ha |
| (12:52 AM) Cecil Angus Gilc: | yea |
| (12:52 AM) Cecil Angus Gilc: | i actually |
| (12:52 AM) Cecil Angus Gilc: | hate to sleep |
| (12:52 AM) Cecil Angus Gilc: | funny rite |
| (12:52 AM) Cecil Angus Gilc: | i keep thinking |
| (12:52 AM) Cecil Angus Gilc: | i feel like life is passing too fast |
| (12:55 AM) “Kryptonite”: | man |
| (12:55 AM) “Kryptonite”: | lol |
| (12:55 AM) “Kryptonite”: | why?? |
| (12:56 AM) Cecil Angus Gilc: | coz i so love it |
| (12:56 AM) Cecil Angus Gilc: | ha ha |
O.O
wow.
been a spectator for quite some time, and some of the nastiest things that can happen to anyone, seems to all begin with falsity.
you just gotta add spite and mix it well with well-intended rumours.
and then cover it up carefully with boot-licking to people who can still be put to good use.
so manipulative and divisive, people can choose to be.
and they hide themselves well, for that’s their trump card.
I WANT TO FAINT AH.
comments for elective is out:
“You were somewhat etc. etc.
…In the 2nd meeting you made very good points when something interested you. But you should be a bit more confident to butt in and make your point when the class is in the middle of a discussion.”
the point is, there’s no response to my punch lines in the RJ! or maybe it’s not obvious enough. and which is why it was my 2nd attempt.. cos the first didn’t work either!
and was it so obvious that i was bored – “..when something interested you”
whoops.
but don’t me wrong! i think the faci is really good, and definitely made the class livelier and in a way, interesting. the thing is, how am i suppose to contribute my thoughts into something i think is redundant? personally, i just didn’t feel any need to reason lor.
all those ‘reasons’ for issues are a result of what happened back from the start, when the fall of man was recorded back in Genesis. in short, the system went haywire. so if we’re the result of this haywire system, definitely our methods and ways of doing things without perfect guidance became as messed up as the system itself. so, is there even a need to analyse how messed up we are?
but of course, this will spark off even more arguments if Genesis even happened.
l o l.
there’s always been a fear of failure, and the issue of hardly completing whatever i’ve started.
for a moment, i thought it’s happened yet again. even in something i was convinced i’m fully secure in. and that scared me. i thought to myself, have i once again given up, even in holding on to the Person i’m closest to nearly all my life?
i have fought to come close, to step into His house, to obtain His word, to tell others about Him. and He has done the same, and very much more, just for me. He was watching as i browsed the christian bookstore 4 years ago, for a bible that i can afford to get. and He saw that i was disheartened that i could find none – and decided then to show Himself. i walked out the store that day holding on to the bible that’s currently on my desk. people had mentioned to me that a verse will jump out at them as they read the word, but in my case, a bible ‘jumped out’. how? i don’t know. i was proceeding to leave the store, disappointed, when suddenly i saw the bible barely inches from my face, as though someone was holding out in front of me. but it happened for less than half a second. and the next thing i knew, i saw a whole stack of it on the shelf.
i knew, the moment i decided to commit to a church, that the one thing i will never forget would be God. i tried to forget, but i couldn’t. though it must have hurt Him. and at this point, i’m given an option to once again climb back onto the altar, without guilt. i was afraid of myself. afraid that i’d bail out halfway again. but i can only trust the One who’s never ever walked out on me. He says that His strength will keep me there. and because it’s Him, i choose to believe.
